There were people in my life whom I wished would encourage me.

They claimed to stand by me, yet their actions never proved it.

So I tried convincing them—

“Look, I’m doing the right thing... I just need a little support...

You’ll stand with me, right?”

And in return, I heard only silence.

As a child, I explained myself relentlessly,

Only to receive nods without true understanding.

When I needed them most, all I felt were cold, distant vibes.

Confusion crept in—

If I was doing the right thing, then where was the problem?

These questions haunted me,

Making me doubt myself...

I turned to them with my struggles,

Hoping they would understand.

Instead, I found myself questioning—

“Have I done anything wrong?”

Over and over, only to realize—it wasn’t me.

Who do I celebrate with when I win?

Those who appear only to claim credit?

Where were they when I fought alone?

Could they not step off their fence just once,

Just to acknowledge my efforts?

Self-doubt is easy when we don’t see the whole picture.

So I sought to understand—

Myself, my emotions, and why things unfolded as they did.

I needed to Express Uneasiness.

And when I did, the fog lifted.

I had blamed myself for their fence-sitting,

But in truth, it was only their weakness that kept them there.

So I accept them as they are.

With that, I found the relief I had long craved.

No longer will I waste time proving myself

To those trapped in their own indecision.

I have promised myself this—

To work on me so relentlessly

That I attract those who see the real me.

To be the support and inspiration I once longed for.

And soon, there will be people who stand with me—

Wholeheartedly, unconditionally.

That dream is slowly becoming my reality as I work towards it.

Even the fence-sitters have their place in my story,

For they taught me exactly who not to be.

Now, I choose to become someone I will be proud of

When I reflect on my past.

Your Psychologist,

Who collaborates with you when you decide to build a better self,

Ambidextrous Anmol